Freewrites, this new year:

A look around
Take me down down to the outer world town
Hearing bits of my soul yell back at me
"Can't you see I'm living free!?"
Happy is hard to come by sometimes
NotUnderstanding how we barely make it through
Most likely the trick is something
....Very easy to do.

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Find yourself lost amongst the storms?
Hold Strong
You're connected forever to the clouds.
Above it all you can rest.
Above it all you can do your best.

Stay High
above it all.

Who needs the ground when the sky is where your soul is found?

Truly, with as much as I am moving I feel fine and still.
My mind is settled and my heart beats steady.

Truly, I am at peace within myself and it feels amazing to be so.
One should try this.

I feel as though my entire world has flipped itself into perfection (or close enough thereto).
I am rearranging my thoughts, listening to my heart, letting go of fear, and embracing change-

Life
Is
Good.

Cheers,
Virginia

Uh Oh, Big Girl....

In the motion of things that flow, I have obtained a second job.

At first glance, I was stoked and very thankfully... but uh oh...
Ithoughtaboutit.

I'm going to be working 4 days a week in Park City, and 2 days in SLC until April. Though I am going to LOVE receiving a check every week, I am not going to love the persistence of 6 days a week... please wish me (and my ever so ADD, free spirit-style, soul) good luck, for I shall need it!

::Cheers:: Here's to work! Phew!

The Unwinding

It's been quite the endeavor settling my wandering mind after my trip to California.

One of the most popular obstacles I have had to face has been, "How was your trip?".

Silly, right? Can't answer one easy little question.
It's just...

Well... There aren't really words I can say to completely describe the week other than with everyday verbs:

Play
Answer
Ask
Walk
Play
Sing
Dance
Venture
Hurt
Scream
Drive
Vent
Eat
Drive
Play
Yearn

I feel like so much happened over the week, yet... nothing at all. It POURED rain the first few days I was there and although I felt a little more serene about everything I still felt a little off.

It may take some time to really put my finger on the reason why I am feeling so confused about everything, but when I figure something out- I'll be sure to attempt the transformation into words. It might be life changing. It might be PMS.

Only (nonexistent, illusionary*) time will tell.



*Aware "illusionary" isn't a word but it sounds cool

Giddy

I am off to see Trevor tomorrow. A lot of really amazing things are going to happen this week. I can tell.

Here it Comes

The big anticipation.

I am leaving for CA to be with my baby boy Trevor on Thursday. It's been far too long since I've held him in my arms or played on the floor with the beautiful creature I call my son.

Seriously... the 21st-28th will be epic. Will be fantastic. I am so excited to be a Mommy again, for real. I'm sorry I'm not always there for you in person, Trevor, but you have an amazing Daddy! I have no doubt in my mind things will be as they should in our little, broken, family. Even though something is broken doesn't mean it can't work, right?

I love you Trevor! I will see you soon! YIPPEE!!!!!!

Dry

Oh, to revert.

Once warm, now cold.
Once talk, now listen.

Once act, now wait.

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The way life changes as years pass by is astonishing. Reflections of bad choices, good choices, and great choices.

I have been writing plenty, just on paper. I've written four real letters to assorted friends and... honestly haven't received a response yet. My latest was sent last week so I certainly feel I will get a response from it. ;) Truly a dying art form- the letter. Tell me, how happy do you get when you receive an envelope in the mail that doesn't contain a bill (or junk mail!)?

I move to bring back letters.

I would love to have a legit ::McHammerDance:: pen pal. Sending 3x5 photos and everything. Anyone with me?

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Thank you to anyone out there reading through this and spending a few moments with "me".

Two of my New Year's Resolutions:
...Keep Rock/Paper/Scissors going strong
...Create something every few days

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Thanks again for stopping by- let me know if you want to be my pen pal :D
-Virginia