Sorry.

I have come to realize that I haven't written a decent blog in a while. What's up with that? Well, I am super happy.


I write the best when I am not happy... and since I am having the time of my life right now... that means no writing, haha.

Consider it a good thing.

Thanks for stopping by,
Virginia

.....hm.

Twisted inside, about to explode
What better way than quietly

Swinging in time to the music in my ears
Blowing up my heart, blowing up my mind
Trying dear trying
Not to think clear

Muddy murky
Easier to breathe
When your covered in muck
In my case, in this case
I want to break

Run away
A thousand times in my head
Run away a million time sin my heart
Which way to run
To falter to fall
To sink


Deep in the crevice the dark the dark
About what I am thinking clearly undefined
Brains spattered on the ground
Metaphorically of course
Heart pierced with shrapnel
Broken jagged

broken
jagged

Bloody mess in my eyes
bloody mess in my spirit setting free
the dark side of me
prepared to run
but scared to death
scared
scared

cliche madness
predictable text
perfectly damaged
coming undone

an entity not entirely empty
but losing sand with time
through the holes although ever so tiny
they are


things that are
tend to be
never leaving my brain
no matter how badly i try
no matter how badly i try to get them away

venting through the growing cracks
what happens when i am out of steam?
what happens? what does all this crap mean?


why is it loud music in my ears makes everything ok?
why is it i can see nothing? hear everything? feel....

feel... barely.


free write feel it write
feel it right

feel it wrong feel wrong to be right
in my brain
where i belong
i cry in songs

i cry in songs

as long as i can breathe
as long as i do breathe i will live fine
by my own, my own, rules.

always

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

A best friend, a beautiful woman,

An Incredible Person.

Happy Birthday Chelsea W.,
I love you!!

WOOHOO!

So, i have an interview on Tuesday morning for Petco :).

The new manager is amazing! She actually cares about the animals and her associates. She seems like the kind of person a great business relationship can blossom from.

I'm excited!!

BIGWHOOP!

Petco.

If you will for a moment (or can)- recall my Petco situation from about...uh... 8 months ago.

If there's nothing popping in your brain then here's the nutshell:
-applied for dog training position
-got hired
-manager was a raging blitch, lied to me straight out
-i turned down said position


Well folks... there's new management. I have heard through the grapevine (a few employees at the store, and my bestie) that the new manager could be a lot easier to work with.

This makes me EXTREMELY happy. I really wanted that Petco job. I would be secure for a year, get a client base, and the experience I need teaching classes.

I'm not such a huge fan of classes, but I really do need to just do it.... hehe.

Plus, now I am certified now so I don't think I will have to go to Vegas for their training course. Big Whoop!!

Love you guys,
You rock,
Virginia

Holy Moly That's Pathetic...

Not having internet for the passed few days has shown me I truly am dependent on the world wide web.

Sporadically throughout the day I would think, "I wonder what that means..." (or "I'll check the weather" or "I don't know, let me see where the nearest store is...." ) then I would run to my computer to look it up and....


...well...


You get the idea.

I'm standing in my kitchen, mooching off another person's internet service. Although I am not unaccustomed to doing this, I miss my internet, hehe.

If any of the three of you that read this were wondering how the heck my last few weeks have been... I can tell you this:

Interesting.

:)

Vague, and awesome.

I know it's unlike me to be vague (as I thoroughly enjoy going into painstakingly delicious detail), but in reality... I don't have words for the last few weeks, yet.

I know, weird, right?

Thanks for tuning in. As always, I am ever so grateful, and you get tons of love and good energy your way.

::high five::