Faces shoved into phones
Fingers blazing across tiny plastic screens
Unaware of beauty around them
Because instant gratification has them hooked


What is this world we live in coming to
Blind to the resources of nature and growth

Oh society, as I see it, sitting in a Starbucks for free wifi

The Dance

Riddle & Twiddle
Your thumbs in the middle
While waiting for life to step up...

Then you lose your grace
Fall flat on your face
And wonder what the heck went wrong!

Take a moment and consider the jitter
That negativity puts in your space!


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Just had to do that, it popped into my head like a freewrite, so I wrote it here.  In short, I am glad I have conquered the darkness for the time being.  The strength that comes out of me sometimes is surprising. But it's DEFINITELY due to my amazing support system!!  Without my friends, Matt, Trevor, and my Mom's spirit--  *sigh*  you guys know what I am trying to say.

Well, it's time to dance so I'll say goodbye for now.  Embrace the light!

Thanks for tuning in,
Virginia

Good Morning

The Undone

Which is that of the one undone?
Whistle my ear or rhythm my drum?
Emotion vibration if down it will go...
To end which this is the quest to know.
In thinking my thoughts be they wary or weak
I find it endearing amidst the defeat.
Standing there grinning
Tilting and winning-
Wave of wondering: Complete.

Survival

Hi everyone.

It's definitely been a while since I've written.  Hey- I never promised regular entries, though I may have hinted at it on occasion.

Here's one for you. :)

You know how life likes to become extraordinarily challenging from time to time?  You know... to make sure you're still paying attention?  That's what's going on right now in my little world.

Thanks Life, it's a good thing I like you.

Is all that vague enough for you?  I'm REALLY trying to be positive if it wasn't obvious.  Things are pretty tough right now in my body, mind, and soul.  This huge change has... well... it definitely tilted my security.  I'm off.  Distracted.  Feeling stranded, dependent, sad, confused, frustrated and just plain bad.

I shouldn't!!!  Duh.  I have a roof over my head, I have a good job, I have family, I have a beautiful son, a wonderful boyfr... ugh OK you guys get it.  Said it before and all that junk.

Anyway...

Once things smooth out (oh please oh please I hope they do soon!!!) I'll be able to gain a different perspective on all this, and in turn one can hope to learn and grow from it all.  The usual Lifetime Drama storyline, minus the neighbor with down syndrome and the little brother who is struggling to make friends in his new school.

It's not Thursday, but maybe a smooshing of things I am thankful for in this next paragraph will help with my trek in the right direction. Alrighty:

living above the city & being able to see the stars - my favorite voice singing & telling me he loves me over & over & over on the phone every night - unconditional, true, love - a great job that i am really good at - old friends - new friends- the "quiet car" on the train - getting better at holding my tongue - being able to think of things i am thankful for even though it's so easy to get pissed off at everything - kind "family" - helpful friends - readers who get this far into my blog (hey, thanks by the way...) - breath in my lungs, strength in my muscles, will power - a tv that also functions as an awesome computer monitor - healthy food - free stuff - motorcycles that run - the best dog in the world - aaaaaaand....

LIFE.

Oh yes Life, that's right I am thankful for you.  During a spell of negativity I found myself wishing I could be like a fox, or ant, or bird, or any non-domesticated creature for that matter.  Their sense of purpose is simple.  They have the same goal every day.  No need to question themselves.  No need to wonder, "Why has this happened to me?"  The weight of free will doesn't exist in their lives.  Imagine that.

Truth is, wasting your time daydreaming about being somewhere else or being someone else doesn't change a damn thing.  Just makes you feel worse.  I am an advocate for "The Secret" also known as the Law of Attraction so if I stay in this dark place more dark things will happen.  I know this.  I am trying!  Well, maybe I am.  It feels like I am... but ya know, it would be nice if things would just fall into place already!!

OH SNAP!

Well, the move....

it has...

happened.

Kind of a trip, ya know? We're here, and most of the "important stuff" has been taken care of.  There are a few more things that have to happen before we can begin our lives as normal but baby steps are in order.

Speaking of baby steps, I just got off the phone with Trevor.  Oh my heart.  Harmony in laughter.  The smiles and laughter that are brewed in his soul are priceless ad timeless.  Truly a many splendorous thing! (Doesn't that saying really go, "...a many splendored thing" ?  Apparently "splendored" isn't a real word...?)

I digress, though you catch my drift right?

The transition is a tough one.  Things are seemingly alright on the outside, but hopefully familiarity does not breed contempt in this case.  It's tight quarters and family.  It'll be interesting.  I have good faith in the guys, and mostly it's just a test of personal patience.

A big test.

It will be OK.  Ya know, duh.  Just gotta breathe.

In


and



Out


...nice and slow.

Perhaps it's a good lesson for when my son is a teenager?  This experience will give me some insight into almost-adults, and hopefully help me build a stronger relationship with Trevor  (Oh look, there I go looking at the bright side again).

Life is good, just gotta take it one moment at a time.

Thanks for tuning in, my friends. Until next time- Don't forget to take a moment to breathe.

Sincerely,
Vi

Happening.

Last day of work, reserved trailer, over stuffed heavy boxes...

Oh dear.

This is really happening! Ah!

All good things are happening. It's terribly exciting; riding along the rip tide of chaos and order.

Side note- every time I use a semi colon I think of my friend Josh, and his disdain for them.

Back to things at hand...

There is still a general feeling of anxiety hovering over me, but having a man like mine by my side makes everything worth it.  And I'm not just saying that to be sappy, it's most definitely the truth.  One lucky lady I am.

Gah, sorry I blab on about him too much sometimes ;)

It was hard to say goodbye to my friends at work, and when the time comes it'll be hard to say it to the roomies. 

It's been a really good stretch. The last three years have been incredible, to say the least. There are brilliant folks here I will cherish forever, always consider good friends. I miss 'em already!

Ah, c'est la vie! Non?

California here I come... Right back where I started from!

Sincerely,
Vi