Friday, November 26, 2010

Tomorrow is Saturday.

As obvious as that title is, I had to say it any way.

A few things: Chris makes the most delicious, and fattening mashed potatoes.
Celeste has officially sewn together a few hens' butts.
Matt is really adorable when he gets frustrated.
Jubs smells.
Vince curls up into a teeny tiny little ball to go to sleep, and rests his nose right in his butt, under the base of his tail. I can't say I get it. But I can say it's probably cold in this room.
It's been a good day.

My humor is often relatively dry and finds itself lost on people. It's a gurseift (pronounced gers-ift). Or, if you don't follow the word smash, it's a rare gift and also a curse. I can be offensive.

OK, I am offensive, but only slightly. Mostly I mean well... OKOK lies, I always mean well. I just have the unfortunate knack of stating the dry. Thanks Dad. I blame you.

Dad and I walk into a restaurant for lunch (long, long ago). Hostess leans over the podium and in a far-too-cheerful voice says, "Hello sir! How many?"

He doesn't move, aside from a genuine smile.

Calm as a molasses lake in winter time he says, "27."

She looks at me- somewhat exasperated. I say. "27, and they'll be here in about twenty minutes. How long will the wait be?"

It was just the two of us. Ah, good times.

Maybe this scene really did happen, maybe it didn't. It might have been a dream. My dreams are always really strange. Do you realize your dreaming, then take over to accomplish a goal? It's pretty crazy. The stuff I do in my dreams is the stuff I pretend to do all day when I'm awake (like kung-fu, swordplay, swimming, saving the world, that kind of stuff). I've never flown, but I have swam underwater, being able to breathe, many many many times. Oh those are my favorite.

A dear old friend (like we're 80 now or something) has been popping up in my dreams a lot. We almost died together, so I guess we're subconsciously bonded together forever. Or maybe we've been that way for generations?

You know what you got here? A genuine, no edit, write session. Hooray. I just realized that's what I was doing. It feels really nice, actually. Hopefully not too dreadfully boring for my visitors.

Honestly, I'm trying to get more people to read my writing. Is that so much to ask? You know what, it actually is. Here's the deal- I'm going to write from the heart, and if you like it read it, pass it on maybe, if you don't... suck it. I mean... that's fine by me. To each his own, and my own is a little bit like Heaven when I find the right words. Any one still with me?

I decided to put a chair under our window in the bedroom, since we moved the room around and the window is open. I like it. When I slouch on the chair (WHAT? Me? Slouching...? Well I never!) , my head sits about an inch below the sill. I can feel the cold from outside, and the warmth of the single light standing just above my head.

Matt just laughed in his sleep. Life is awesome. I am really glad I have found someone who loves life as much as I do. Who can find the best in everything and everyone. Though he gets lazy about it, he means well- and he does a great job trying. We are happy together. The title of this site "Always an Adventure" is inspired by him. He's helping me stay strong through rough times, and makes me laugh and smile. He's good at making me feel beautiful, and he laughs at all my jokes (well most of them, I think only Mike W. laughs at all my jokes... thanks Mike).

I guess what I am trying to say is there is only one giant chunk of my life sliding off the cliff right now, and I have to grow some strong vines, or find some serious cement to keep it from falling off permanently. Oh, with the metaphors. I'm good at it... so I do it.

What are you good at? I'm good at looking at the clock at 11:11, or 12:34, or 10:01, or... you get the idea. I'm really good at getting phrases or words stuck in my head. I barely ever get songs in my head- it's almost always a single word like, "emancipation" or a phrase from a movie, show, friend, or just me like, "Tulio and Miguel, Miguel and Tulio! Almighty and Powerful GODS!"

Oh phew. Good movie.

I digress, yes, I digress a lot. I like the word digress. It's one that has been stuck in my head before.

Am I writing my thoughts? Ya... I'm going to stop doing that now, and do some hunting for Christmas gifts online. Oh the joys.

Thanks for tuning in,

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanksgiving, 2010.

The blizzard wasn't as bad as the news folk, and "authorities" were making it out to be. It snowed, a lot, but that was about it... no treacherous high winds or power outages...

It was still beautiful. Absolutely remarkable. When it's 1o:30pm, and on a clear night it would be hard to see the ground from the third floor... the snow BRIGHTENS the environment. You can see as though it's early morning right before the sun rises. Incredible. Truly.

This place is my home, and I love it so much. I dream of buying a cute little home here with exposed brick and good natural lighting. I dream of a fenced in yard, with lots of open space. I dream of a cute kitchen with gadgets galore, and an open great room so everyone can hang out together. Someday!

I put my iPod on random, and sat back on my gaming chair. I started clicking away at the computer. Shortly I will be playing a FRUSTRATING, but unstoppable, video game waiting for my dearest to come home and share Thanksgiving Dinner with the roommates and I.

I'm going to share the first few songs that popped up on my iPod:
1. Eon Blue Apocalypse- Tool- Lateralus
2. Ensemble Ethnique-Asilah, on the Buddha Bar Series- Ten Years
3. Sacred Lie- Disturbed- Ten Thousand Fists
4. Wind it Up- Mark Pritchard & Om'mas Keith- Dubstep Collection 8
5. Egmont: Overture- Beethoven- Master of Vol. 3
6. The Lovecats- The Cure- Greatest Hits
7. I am the Walrus- Oingo Boingo- Boingo
8. Violent Pornography- System of a Down- Mezmerize
9. Club Soda- Ghostland Observatory- Robotique Majestique

...and that's the song I'm on now, so I'll leave it there.

My next list will be what I am thankful for. It is Thanksgiving after all.

As you all know this can go on and on and on, because everyday I have many things to be thankful for. I will try to keep it simple for the time being.

I am thankful for my son, Trevor. Always in my heart, and I miss you more and more every day.

I am thankful for my boyfriend, Matt. We've had two wonderful years together, and there will be plenty more to come! This relationship is IT! :D

I am thankful for really good roommates. People say it's hard to find them, but we've always been lucky. Never had a problem with roommates. These particular roommates we have now work very well. :) They are awesome!

I am thankful for my health. I am rarely sick, in pain, or uncomfortable for one reason or another. I eat very well, and once I start the exercise part I'll be stronger :)

I am thankful for a job that I like, and its paycheck... despite how much I gripe about taxes ;)

I am thankful for a strong sense of smell and even stronger sense of taste. I love food!

I am thankful for a really really good dog. He doesn't get walked far enough, played with enough, but he is always loved. He is unconditionally forgiving, and such a good good dog.

I am thankful for random messages and comments from friends I haven't spoken with in a while. It's nice to know we're still connected even though life has drawn us apart in one way or another.

I am thankful for family... even though they are far away- they are still out there, and love me. Miss you.

I am thankful for electricity, energy, renewable resources, candle, camping, movies, comfy chairs, nice sheets, clean water, fireplaces, warm socks, skiing, and love.

Most of all, I am thankful for love and the hope it gives me. I have faith in myself to stay positive and strong no matter what comes across my path.

Thanks for tuning in.


Tuesday, November 23, 2010


Sitting here in my living room, looking out the window watching the blizzard. Literal blizzard.

This is the first one I have ever been in. It's crazy. I'm a little beside myself because I want to feel so happy and wonderful, but I really just wish I was sharing it with a small and special someone.

He loves the snow as much as I do.

::throws a metaphorical snowball at Trevor in So Cal::

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