Time...

...Oh so relative.  A gift. A curse. A menace. A blessing.


Know what I mean?  Well, the move is now scheduled for September 1.  Only a month off target, so we can't be too offset can we?

Good news!  I got a job already in So. Cal.  I will be joining the magical crew in the Disneyland Entertainment Dept. doing what I did a few *cough, 8, cough* years ago.  The audition was grueling!  Do something, wait wait wait, do something wait wait wait, move on to next round.  Rinse and repeat. It was a 12 hour day when all was said and done and I was exhausted (ironically exhausted from waiting all day?).  Though everything came out alright, this isn't the light at the end of the tunnel just yet.

There is still SO much to accomplish before the move can be made successfully.  As most of you are aware living in CA is not cheap.  It's hard to find a decent place, for a couple, with two dogs that doesn't cost something outrageous.

We're keeping our chins up and staying positive.

I'm kinda waiting for a miracle.  We'll see.

I hope you all are having a great day, and there is so much more I want to write about but you know how that goes...

See ya when I see ya.  Thanks for stopping by!!

Sincerely,
Vi

Testing, One Two, Testing

What do you think of the new layout?  I'm not entirely convinced, I think the colors are just...well, no they're fine, it's the layout it's kind of... well...

I guess it looks OK, for now, but I'm not totally in love.  I kinda miss my old layout.  Should I go back?

Help...

It's 8:45pm & I'm drinking chai...

Trevor just called :)  It's so fun talking to him on the phone.  Half the time I can't understand what he is saying (I don't have the best hearing on the phone for some reason but everywhere else it's fine...).  He always tells me he loves me forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever (and so on)...oh too many cute words to say about him.  I'll stop for now and see how far I can get on another topic.

We'll talk about something I've experienced twice in the last three years instead.  Though it's not adorable and awe-worthy, here we go anyway: Complete diet change.

Three years ago, in February, I became a vegetarian to improve digestion (it worked!!), and July 1 this year I have chosen to try a gluten-free diet for various reasons.  My goal is three months, in hopes it'll help me stay healthy and energetic in this upcoming busy/stressful time of year.  There may not be anything more physically important than being aware of what we put in our bodies... it doesn't all have to be good, just know what it does to ya, and how to make sure you body bounces back to homeostasis.   Oh sheesh, I'm rambling.

The point of that statement is I've been about 95% successful in this diet change.  There were a few things I ate before considering the fact it may contain gluten.... and a few things I just wanted to eat.  Oh I know, I certainly shouldn't cheat this, but thankfully I'm not allergic-we are purely experimental at this point. It must be said the specialty foods are more expensive but so far the switch has been well worth the money.  Finding new challenges, trying new things, and being healthy... can't find the bad in that. :)

Trevor is five now.  He starts kindergarten on Aug 3rd, which I've booked a turn around flight for.  Had the circumstances been a little different I'd probably be researching the school, talking to teacher(s), preparing Trevor, that sort of thing... but there's no way to know for sure.  It's all in my imagination at this point.  I've been trying to do as much as I can, and I know (KNOW) there is more I could be doing... but... but....

You know the drill.  I've done my best. The world is full of crud and bad things happen and people forget how to get along with each other, or can't/won't get along with each other... or life (i.e. MONEY >:\) gets in the way...

We will be in California soon.  No matter what.  Not as soon as we had hoped, but it is happening.  We want to make sure we leave no loose ends here in Utah, be prepared for the move.  I guess you could say we're trying to be mature and grown up about it.  We laugh a lot through this stressful time, make all the time "quality time", so I believe things will work out for the best.


Thanks for tuning in.... oh and did you notice how I went right back to Trevor there?  Happens, when you're in love that is.

And I certainly am in love!

Independence

I have many fond memories of summer BBQ's throughout the years; camping, fireworks, that sort of thing... but one year something extraordinary happened, and it goes a little something like this:

Sitting on the base of the lifeguard tower was the best spot on that Independence evening, as the scattered humans along the beach hustled and bustled preparing to watch the Oceanside fireworks show.  We didn't need chairs, and our butts weren't going to get wet in the sand.  Hooray for that.

More than thirty, though I'd say less than fifty, folks filled into the moon shaped cove.  Chattering and laughing.  My partner in crime and I wiggled with impatience (and chilliness) when the inspiration to start singing our National Anthem smacked us in the metaphorical face.

We started singing, and within a few seconds over half the beach raised their voices and joined the melody.  I cried because it was so cool- and I was like 14.  What a sap.

Definitely one of the more emotional things I've ever been a part of.  Felt like a musical, without the dancing.  It was the scene where the main characters are going through a big emotional climax moment.  Know what I mean?

Ah, regardless-  HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!  T'is a beautiful world and nation we have.  Some of us may believe there is something better out there.  We all have our faults, and we all have our strengths.  Your perspective is the most powerful tool in your toolbox.  Change how you see yourself, your world, and your life- and accept that LIFE IS GOOD.  OK, now I'm just on a soapbox.  It's fun up here, short people need to stand on things to get their point across (or reach something in the cabinet above the oven).

The Eye

Beauty, they say, is in the eye of the beholder.

What becomes of those who see beauty in everything?

I guess I will always be...

...A California girl.

Yes, it's in my blood and my soul.  Both physical and mental.  I just don't know what it is, but I thought I would loathe it this time around.

Nope, I'm ready.

This weekend was a beautiful adventure.  Filled with family and LOTS of driving.  I've already adapted myself to the way Californians drive and dare I say- it's more fun than driving here.  YES there are too many freeways and all of which could be at standstill traffic at any given time, but I suppose it comes with the territory.

It's going to be a challenge getting ourselves happily situated in SoCal when the time comes, but I know it's going to work.  I didn't feel nearly as dreadful about CA this time around.  Maybe this means I've grown up a little, and I have a better control of my own destiny?  Feels something like that.

Wish us luck, we're going to need it- and a small miracle.But we've got plenty of friends and loved ones in SoCal, so we won't be alone. :)

Until later,
Vi

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Wow, I have 61 followers.  I mean, I knew I was awesome but...

;)

I guess what I am really trying to say is thank you.  Thank you followers for stopping by from time to time to read the random musings of a quarter-aged woman going through life as positively as possible.  Your visits and comments are immensely appreciated, and help reassure me my words mean something.

I mean, why else say something unless it's useful...?

Because it feels good, that's why.
That's why I'm here.  Writing feels good.  Having people like my writing feels better.  Sharing personal insights and reading others' blogs are just one way to reach out and connect.  Technology is an interesting thing, eh?  Bringing so many to believe they have all the answers right at their fingertips, almost immediately- shortening our attention spans to almost nothing and completely erasing the need for memory....

Thankfully, not everyone experiences this.  Though there are plenty that still fall victim to society's pull and wish to prove something, be cool, be the best-- I feel as though there is a rapidly growing percentage of folks who just want to be heard and share genuine positive feelings with those willing to listen.  Would you agree?  I mean, step back for a second and consider how the focus has shifted from "bigger is better" to "efficient and renewable is BEST!".  *Ahem* For those of you sitting back and thinking, "All those people who take their own bags into the grocery store are crazy hippies" then maybe you're on the wrong blog?  I kid, I kid.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE TECHNOLOGY.  Here I am, sitting with my bass heavy headphones blasting Mika in my ears, checking weather updates for my trip to California this weekend, and sporting fake toenails (ya, don't ask...), but that doesn't mean I'm not trying.

Oh Earth.  One in a million.

Have you seen The Pyramid Code [[on Netflix Instant Watch- yes, I'm addicted]]?  SO AWESOME.  I highly recommend it if you have a natural gravitation toward Egypt or forward thinking.  Good stuff.  It's five 45 minute or so episodes, most of it is wordy and sometimes it's all over the place- but if you sit through the duration there is brilliant insight to be had.

Yes, I've had a few glasses of wine, but I am celebrating.  I will be with my son tomorrow.  Just thinking about it makes me want to tear up.... I can't believe I survived SIX months without seeing him.  Yes, I feel like a terrible mom (I know I'm not, but it eats me up inside everyday and night...), I feel empty and lost without fulfilling my purpose...

*Clears throat*  Alright enough of that.  In August I will see my baby on a regular basis.  I will be his Mom.  I will be his AWESOME mom.  I have no doubt moving to California will be hard, but every time I wrap my arms around that incredibly intelligent, creative little man things will fall into place.

Life IS good. Life is worth living.  Ya, I like that.

Good night everyone.  Thanks for tuning in, and I wish you an adventurous weekend.